Lonely

im pretty bored right now waiting for a decent hour to call. im not complaining though, i love having the quiet wait time in the morning. being in the west is the best, and im loving the new hours. yesterday was halloween so there were some people on the subway in costumes. i saw a really creepy dude with a rubber mask on that covered his entire face, and he had this big giant black hoodie on. he really freaked me out just with how he was and everything. it was like something out of a horror movie with like killer clowns and dolls (both of which scare me, yes, even dolls). i felt like he was gonna pull a gun out or something just with how creepy he was. but luckily, he got off well before my stop. and that was my random halloween moment. now, its all about christmas. ive already seen one store on the way into the subway that is covered in christmas decorations already. they wasted no time once halloween was done. this year has gone by so fast its ridiculous. it seems like it should still be july. i feel like im gonna wake up suddenly and all this year will have been a huge dream. anyway, todays kinda a quiet day. feeling kinda lonely for no reason what so ever. as i was yesterday too, yesterday i was just feeling so lonely and useless for no reason for most of the day. then i just hear from him and just the simplest thing he says just makes everything better again. *sigh* i just wish...