Invisible?

so im taking a break from going through votes. ive been stuck on this one damn page for an hour, its never ending. im not exactly in the best of moods today. i feel like ive got an invisibility switch turned on somewhere because im feeling pretty invisible/sad. i hate it when you feel like you have friends you used to do everything with, then they suddenly start talking to other people then just completely ignore you. its kinda hard to feel like talking to them anymore. im supposed to go home tonight to montreal but im really not wanting to do that either. theres something going on this weekend and id get to see the guy i really like and i cant go to it, and i really wish i could. 9 out of the 10 times i talk to him im a complete dork and i like him so much i can barely talk to him or im just super shy whenever hes around. and i try and force myself to talk to him sometimes but its just not always easy. so now im wishing i could go to the thing so id have extra time to talk to him. or at least have the courage to tell him how i feel....what a day...